:: SISMAG ::
This is gonna be another boring post-week army post.
If you're not interested or if this stuff bores you then really, go away lol.
Then again i don't know why i bother with such posts but yeah it just feels like i haven't done anything constructive with my internet time. I'll blog while waiting for the clock to hit 12. The Julius has his birthday in a few minutes time eh ?
I spent practically 2 weeks straight in base and i guess til now that feeling of having no weekend time to spend at home just.... grows on you. It's strange how not being able to get home like everyone else just... seems to not affect you in the long run. I do miss home and the friends and the family and the food and everything else, but as always, the process of booking in and out, the routine of switching in-between lives is just... such a fucking chore.
Well i'm pretty glad most of my friends who enlist later on won't really have to feel the same way after BMT, since SISPEC shifts to the mainland PLC after my batch (37th BSLC).
Well i got 'selected' (yeah more like by default for SOC passes) for the one and only SISPEC COC parade. Feel pretty good about the whole thing but i don't really know anyone who'd appreciate the matter.
Been a rough week - mostly on an emotional level, but.... i dunno. I'm still trying to settle with what's going on. That's probably one reason why i hate the whole book in book out deal. I just can't catch up with things. I can't catch up with my friends and when i mean catch up i really don't mean the trivial hang out and chit chat session - i'm feeling like i'm on a colourful technicoloured plastic tricycle chasing after an osaka bullet train.
I just. Can't catch up with all of you. It's not that you're going too fast - i'm just too fucking slow for these things. I'm sorry if i don't bother to call or sms or make the time to do stuff because i just... can't. I miss you guys. I miss my friends. All the dudes and all the females that iused to always laugh and get all crazy with. Mervyn, Dan, Julius, Denise, Dom, David, Jocelyn, Miguel, Nigel, Rayve, Varian, Jon... god halfway through those names i swear i had more names to list but... i guess they all just. I dunno faded away ? No. They don't just fade. I let go of them.
I always do.
Shit i don't want to end up alone.
..but i really just... can't live up to the things that happen.
Sigh well i'm a social ghost as always and i'm gonna be gone for another 2 weeks starting tomorrow night. Section training and demolition live firing begins next week, so... i guess i'll be out again on the 29th and i get some R&R time til the 4th... so... that means i'll be back in time to chill out for my own birthday.
I just wanna say sorry. It's been really rough. I'm trying to cope but i fuck up alot. Forgive me because i still want to be a part of your lives.
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spoken. at 11:33 PM
This is gonna be another boring post-week army post.
If you're not interested or if this stuff bores you then really, go away lol.
Then again i don't know why i bother with such posts but yeah it just feels like i haven't done anything constructive with my internet time. I'll blog while waiting for the clock to hit 12. The Julius has his birthday in a few minutes time eh ?
I spent practically 2 weeks straight in base and i guess til now that feeling of having no weekend time to spend at home just.... grows on you. It's strange how not being able to get home like everyone else just... seems to not affect you in the long run. I do miss home and the friends and the family and the food and everything else, but as always, the process of booking in and out, the routine of switching in-between lives is just... such a fucking chore.
Well i'm pretty glad most of my friends who enlist later on won't really have to feel the same way after BMT, since SISPEC shifts to the mainland PLC after my batch (37th BSLC).
Well i got 'selected' (yeah more like by default for SOC passes) for the one and only SISPEC COC parade. Feel pretty good about the whole thing but i don't really know anyone who'd appreciate the matter.
Been a rough week - mostly on an emotional level, but.... i dunno. I'm still trying to settle with what's going on. That's probably one reason why i hate the whole book in book out deal. I just can't catch up with things. I can't catch up with my friends and when i mean catch up i really don't mean the trivial hang out and chit chat session - i'm feeling like i'm on a colourful technicoloured plastic tricycle chasing after an osaka bullet train.
I just. Can't catch up with all of you. It's not that you're going too fast - i'm just too fucking slow for these things. I'm sorry if i don't bother to call or sms or make the time to do stuff because i just... can't. I miss you guys. I miss my friends. All the dudes and all the females that i
I always do.
Shit i don't want to end up alone.
..but i really just... can't live up to the things that happen.
Sigh well i'm a social ghost as always and i'm gonna be gone for another 2 weeks starting tomorrow night. Section training and demolition live firing begins next week, so... i guess i'll be out again on the 29th and i get some R&R time til the 4th... so... that means i'll be back in time to chill out for my own birthday.
I just wanna say sorry. It's been really rough. I'm trying to cope but i fuck up alot. Forgive me because i still want to be a part of your lives.
_
spoken. at 11:33 PM
