:: Exitlude ::
I think I've had enough of viewing my blog and scrolling through all these... nonsensical and pseudo-cryptic posts.
I woke up a little earlier today to the rain and the thought that a group of people, that i'm honestly not very close to or consider myself a part of, is having their share of tears and goodbyes.
For once, as an outsider and as an observer; I felt horrible seeing them shed their tears and wave their farewells.
Where usually, I'd have taken mental notes and coughed up a week's worth of thought to unravel and learn from - In such a moment where their goodbyes were said at the airport, I wanted to panic. Though Juli is my friend as well as theirs, I felt antsy just watching the emotion pour out in tears and hugs and frantic words that, under normal circumstances, would not have made any audible sense at all.
I didn't cry when she left, but that didn't necessarily make me any less emotional than anybody else that was there this morning - I realized this when Juli walked towards Arthur to greet and kiss him goodbye.
I don't know if I was hearing anything in particular but I remember letting out quite a loud sigh. In all honesty I doubt I've witnessed anything as sad as lovers parting and forcibly choosing to end the dance for fear of a future that the distance brings.
Though holding hands, still and silent - I know we felt and shared their fear as we looked to their eyes to trace for tears. I felt our hands grip tighter in response to every sob and every rolling tear.
I walked away from there feeling so weighed down by the sadness and stillness of the morning air.
I woke up today and it seemed like the stillness chose to linger with the rain. I remembered two names along with the one that I wake up to everyday, and I sent a text to these two lads, Arthur and Xuan Bin (Bee). I sent them what I felt were appropriate words of encouragement, as they head off to a little island of war, North-east of mainland.
It'll be tough to start with, but I'm sure you guys'll pull through.
Though I must admit it isn't as if we've been acquainted for long, It pains me so much to know that all these people are fighting to carry on with what comes their way and deal with the fear of losing each other with hysteric laughter derived from self-ridicule and badly taken photos - not that it's wrong; just that I admire all of you for that.
So the boys are off to the Army, with a couple more of them following soon after at the end of the year. The girls will move on to pursue their careers or start their school terms - and the next thing to look out for is when Juli comes back end of year for summer.
Though I don't associate myself with you guys all that much, I just wanted to really say that looking at your group of friends made me think alot about mine, and I feel alot of regret for not being, in return to them, the friends they all were to me. I pray that when you wake this morning, you will look upon your friendship and look forward to whatever comes with hope, and a knowing that you will have each other still.
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spoken. at 12:01 PM
I think I've had enough of viewing my blog and scrolling through all these... nonsensical and pseudo-cryptic posts.
I woke up a little earlier today to the rain and the thought that a group of people, that i'm honestly not very close to or consider myself a part of, is having their share of tears and goodbyes.
For once, as an outsider and as an observer; I felt horrible seeing them shed their tears and wave their farewells.
Where usually, I'd have taken mental notes and coughed up a week's worth of thought to unravel and learn from - In such a moment where their goodbyes were said at the airport, I wanted to panic. Though Juli is my friend as well as theirs, I felt antsy just watching the emotion pour out in tears and hugs and frantic words that, under normal circumstances, would not have made any audible sense at all.
I didn't cry when she left, but that didn't necessarily make me any less emotional than anybody else that was there this morning - I realized this when Juli walked towards Arthur to greet and kiss him goodbye.
I don't know if I was hearing anything in particular but I remember letting out quite a loud sigh. In all honesty I doubt I've witnessed anything as sad as lovers parting and forcibly choosing to end the dance for fear of a future that the distance brings.
Though holding hands, still and silent - I know we felt and shared their fear as we looked to their eyes to trace for tears. I felt our hands grip tighter in response to every sob and every rolling tear.
I walked away from there feeling so weighed down by the sadness and stillness of the morning air.
I woke up today and it seemed like the stillness chose to linger with the rain. I remembered two names along with the one that I wake up to everyday, and I sent a text to these two lads, Arthur and Xuan Bin (Bee). I sent them what I felt were appropriate words of encouragement, as they head off to a little island of war, North-east of mainland.
It'll be tough to start with, but I'm sure you guys'll pull through.
Though I must admit it isn't as if we've been acquainted for long, It pains me so much to know that all these people are fighting to carry on with what comes their way and deal with the fear of losing each other with hysteric laughter derived from self-ridicule and badly taken photos - not that it's wrong; just that I admire all of you for that.
So the boys are off to the Army, with a couple more of them following soon after at the end of the year. The girls will move on to pursue their careers or start their school terms - and the next thing to look out for is when Juli comes back end of year for summer.
Though I don't associate myself with you guys all that much, I just wanted to really say that looking at your group of friends made me think alot about mine, and I feel alot of regret for not being, in return to them, the friends they all were to me. I pray that when you wake this morning, you will look upon your friendship and look forward to whatever comes with hope, and a knowing that you will have each other still.
Exitlude - The Killers
"Aggressively, we all defend the role we play.
Regrettably - time's come to send you on your way
We've seen it all,
Bonfires of trust,
Flashfloods of pain.
Doesn't really matter,
Don't you worry - it'll all work out.
No it doesn't even matter,
Don't you worry what it's all about.
We hope, you enjoyed your stay -
It's good to have you with us,
Even if it's just for the day.
We hope, you enjoyed your stay -
Outside the sun is shining;
Seems like heaven ain't far away.
It's good to have you with us,
Even if it's just for the day.
Outside, the sun is shining; seems like heaven ain't far away."
"Aggressively, we all defend the role we play.
Regrettably - time's come to send you on your way
We've seen it all,
Bonfires of trust,
Flashfloods of pain.
Doesn't really matter,
Don't you worry - it'll all work out.
No it doesn't even matter,
Don't you worry what it's all about.
We hope, you enjoyed your stay -
It's good to have you with us,
Even if it's just for the day.
We hope, you enjoyed your stay -
Outside the sun is shining;
Seems like heaven ain't far away.
It's good to have you with us,
Even if it's just for the day.
Outside, the sun is shining; seems like heaven ain't far away."
_
spoken. at 12:01 PM
