:: the fiction we live ::
I think schemas work in such a way where we size the person up and then we act in accordance. The only problem here is that there's just too much amibiguity going on for me to even act in any rational and consistent way.
i just don't know what to say and i'm at a loss for words because your message just isn't clear enough. Do what you must to get what you want - even if it means causing harm; but i urge you, with me - just fucking do a nike. It'll save us.... alot of trouble and excess we clearly don't need.
I won't claim that i know you that well - but then i ask myself why i got so bothered over the whole issue and why it affects me so much. What does it all mean ?
I respect what you want, who you are and the world you're in right now - but what i just don't get is all the mixed messages and feelings i'm receiving.
If that really is me you're talking about, and if you really think it's something i want in particular from you, then you're wrong. I don't want to get all harsh but i have to admit a certain amount of hurt for how i felt judged even before i revealed any true form of feeling whatsoever. No, i am not wronging you - i am coming clean.
You have your life - you have your priorities - you have your loves and you have your friends. I have my dreams, i have my ambition and i have my duty.
what i'm trying to say is - i'm going to be affected just as much as you are - whether anything happens or not. Seeing as how things are going - i'm already affected to a certain extent.
I'm affected because... well, i don't even know why. I don't even know why because i know the reasons for the attraction, and i know the reason for withdrawal - but what i do not know and am sure that i will not understand - is why i actually feel so much for something that usually comes along so trivially in life. Why did it hit me so hard this time ? Is there something more to you that i'm missing out ?
It's like i became a eunuch even before i grew my first pubes - i got cut off before i could even realize anything was happening.
...there's just too much amibguity. I'm really, really confused.
Can i ask a favour of you ?
Either hit it to me straight without holding back the punches, or speak to me none at all - because i just don't know what to think and what to do - and if ever your concern is for me, then trust ME when i say that this is the best course of action for one such as i.
"...expectancy kills." - Daniel David
...so like put two guys into a room, add in abit of military zest, tubes of standard issue SAF camo, a couple of beers and a camera and i guess this is what you'd get.
It's great to be able to hang with the danman again.
OMFG TEH DAN
...i really cannot wait.
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spoken. at 5:03 AM
I think schemas work in such a way where we size the person up and then we act in accordance. The only problem here is that there's just too much amibiguity going on for me to even act in any rational and consistent way.
i just don't know what to say and i'm at a loss for words because your message just isn't clear enough. Do what you must to get what you want - even if it means causing harm; but i urge you, with me - just fucking do a nike. It'll save us.... alot of trouble and excess we clearly don't need.
I won't claim that i know you that well - but then i ask myself why i got so bothered over the whole issue and why it affects me so much. What does it all mean ?
I respect what you want, who you are and the world you're in right now - but what i just don't get is all the mixed messages and feelings i'm receiving.
If that really is me you're talking about, and if you really think it's something i want in particular from you, then you're wrong. I don't want to get all harsh but i have to admit a certain amount of hurt for how i felt judged even before i revealed any true form of feeling whatsoever. No, i am not wronging you - i am coming clean.
You have your life - you have your priorities - you have your loves and you have your friends. I have my dreams, i have my ambition and i have my duty.
what i'm trying to say is - i'm going to be affected just as much as you are - whether anything happens or not. Seeing as how things are going - i'm already affected to a certain extent.
I'm affected because... well, i don't even know why. I don't even know why because i know the reasons for the attraction, and i know the reason for withdrawal - but what i do not know and am sure that i will not understand - is why i actually feel so much for something that usually comes along so trivially in life. Why did it hit me so hard this time ? Is there something more to you that i'm missing out ?
It's like i became a eunuch even before i grew my first pubes - i got cut off before i could even realize anything was happening.
...there's just too much amibguity. I'm really, really confused.
Can i ask a favour of you ?
Either hit it to me straight without holding back the punches, or speak to me none at all - because i just don't know what to think and what to do - and if ever your concern is for me, then trust ME when i say that this is the best course of action for one such as i.
"...expectancy kills." - Daniel David
...so like put two guys into a room, add in abit of military zest, tubes of standard issue SAF camo, a couple of beers and a camera and i guess this is what you'd get.
It's great to be able to hang with the danman again.
OMFG TEH DAN
...i really cannot wait.
"I can't be her angel now
You know it's not my place to hold her down
And it's hard for me to take a stand
When I would take her anyway I can
She comes and she goes
Like no one can
She comes and she goes
She's slipping through my hands
She's always buzzing just like
Neon, neon."
You know it's not my place to hold her down
And it's hard for me to take a stand
When I would take her anyway I can
She comes and she goes
Like no one can
She comes and she goes
She's slipping through my hands
She's always buzzing just like
Neon, neon."
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spoken. at 5:03 AM
